Getting Personal:
Knowing me from the root

Once I met a girl in the bus who told me to open the window, in totally wrong English! Most of the people here can't speak or understand English well, so it's being over smart and showing a status symbol to do that, anyway then I tell her in English that I've problems in understanding English, and seeing her thought that she's a Bangladeshi native and could speak it in Bengali. As forced, she had to do, and only then I open the window.

What occasion do you lie on? I think, I only lie as a manner of joke. I generally don't like to cheat people. Unlike most of the young guys, I never lie about my money, brilliancy, achievements, credits, girlfriends and stuff. This is what I really hate. I lie when knowing the truth will hurt someone but won't do any good. So, I only lie for good purposes in general. I guess that's why it was created. What things do you like about your appearance? Well, my eyes are small, but good looking. Silky straight hair, it looks good. I have had a lot of hair, have been losing them very rapidly. I like my lips a lot - very red and good looking. I like that my face looks sweet and young... heh heh !! I am fair enough as many say, but I wish I was more. I also like my body a lot - not too thin or too fat like many, but I am well-built. What things do you dislike about your appearance? I have a very oily face, and I sweat a lot in the Summer. That makes me look yucky! So to make myself look fresh, I need to wash my face in every three-four hours and things. Then, I'm afraid of getting bald early since the rate of losing hair since 1998 is really unbelievable. My hair has got a lot thinner though even then I'm totally normal for I had so much hair. Well, my forehead also got a lot bigger. Oh not to mention the pimple-scars in face, LOL! But I'm undergoing my treatment too. And yes, recently I noticed that my eyebrows are also getting lighter and shorter. I really care even about all these small things and losing nice eyebrows is pissing me off. Making me cry!!

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? Ummm... I've uncommon good things while very uncommon misfortunes, same time. So, truly - I like myself a lot as I'm - b'cause no one's perfect. And I'd mind losing my positive things by being someone else, for I value them a lot and am ready to happily tolerate my negative things to have them. I just wish I could have the knowledge of Hora Shastra a bit earlier. What is your greatest weakness? If you don't love someone, then no one can hurt you. So it answers the question. Actually, we all are weak in this point or that.

What is your greatest regret? There're a few things that I consider to be my mistakes, but no such 'greatest regret' is there. We can learn a lot from our mistakes.

What do you consider your greatest achievement to be? Nothing such yet. But if I'm told then I should consider my spiritual understanding and the knowledge of Hora Shastra. It's really invaluable and the King of all knowledge, for sure.

Who is your best friend? Of course the one I can share all my secrets with.

Did you ever have a crush? Sure.

Who is your first crush? Umm... well, I was really a kid then aging 9 years, and she was newly married. I saw her in some wedding for 2/3 times, and I was totally obsessed and surrounded by her thoughts for some 7/8 days after that. She was so beautiful in everything that you can hardly see anyone around like her. She was just incomparable in everything. Very beautiful - very fair and of a good health to bring the fullest beauty of her. Her smile, attitude etc. were seductive. She was totally obsessing and infatuating - very very attractive, like a Goddess or something. She was sort of the main attention of the whole ceremony though she wasn't the bride. Now I really feel very funny about it - how'd she react if she came to know about it? LOL!! I almost forgot about her but this question reminds me all of it. Surprisingly, I was aware about female beauty and attraction, and could 'sense' the hidden stuff between males and females, from right when I was 6/7 years. Still people close to me says that I'm over romantic, LOL!

What type of girl do you hate? In addition to regular bad qualities I hate in a man, I hate those girls who're stubborn. It totally destroys the life of them. They really don't look good with it and it isn't even good for them at all. Being stubborn they don't listen to others, take all wrong decisions and then they ruin their lives, and when they realize, it's too late already. I've seen many like this. Since they're less practical, less smart, more soft and naive, they should be that way and don't try to compete guys. I'm not underestimating them, but their softness and weakness are their beauty. It's just the way nature made them. You can't deny it, really.

Which one would you choose in between breaking someone's heart or having your one broken? Well, breaking my heart is on someone else's hand always, but I can't let myself break anyone's heart. At least, that's what I intend.

Do you support getting physical before marriage, or living together? Well, to me, these are the most romantic and exciting parts of a relationship. Relationship and life, both are totally incomplete without these chapters. Esp., relationship is totally meaningless without these. But it's only welcome when there're true and selfless love, sincerity, maturity, and commitment - then these will automatically come with the harmony of time, and that would be good. But those qualities aren't seen these days. So people don't deserve such nice things either. Being practical, most of the cases I don't support these. Now days these mean only spoiling yourselves for the sake of so called love, and nothing else.

Have you ever broken the law? I guess we all break laws now and then. Law of country, law of God, law of humanity... So many laws, LOL!

What is about the habit of smoking or drinking? I don't smoke, only did a few times as a matter of curisity. Drinking - I also want to satisfy my curisity once or twice. That's all. B'cause I believe that breaking the law without breaking it's purpose never harms. Drinking is bad, but doing once or twice for curisity isn't.

Have you ever taken drugs? No, never. However it makes sense to me. B'cause I know actually why people get in to drugs or suicidal. I myself have passed such painful times, so I understand it too well. Well, to many they're stupids, but it's their lives that force them to take the different rout. Because you can run away from even a deadly snake, but how can you run away from your self, from your life, that gives you intolerable pain all the times? Suicidal and drugs are the only answers then. People don't always have the financial or emotional support either. Everyone wants to be better, and in those cases, even death is better than living the painful life. So it's very simple.

Who is your favourite fiction hero? Oh... it must be Lion-O from Thundercats... LOL!

What is your fantasy? Well, I like to refer myself as Lord Tanweereshwara, a God in my imagination. Tanweereshwara = Tanvir + Eshwara, Eshwara means God, so Tanweereshwara would mean the God named Tanvir. This is an Indian way to name the Gods, I am very much fascinated by and devoted to Hindu religion and it's beliefs since I see them working always. 

Whom or what would you choose for company in a desolate island? Rather than choosing someone, I'd keep wondering who'd agree to go with me! Well I'd like to take a personal computer with net connection, for sure. And I'd take someone I love to talk to and pass time with, if s/he agrees to go with me (Not likely).

How would you like to die? In the lap of an extremely loving one and in a peaceful way. Of course I don't want a premature death nor I wish to live till when I won't be able to walk lacking in fitness.

How would you like to be remembered? We always forget our loved ones so easily after s/he dies. This is always the truth even though we don't admit it and pretend to be so good. However, if one can do something great, he's always remembered through his creation and works.

For advice you go to? For different matters I go to different people, like I'd go to my doctor for medical advices! But well, I never follow anyone's advice blindly, rather always take decisions from my own, considering all the things I know and all the information I got.

Do you like to study? No, not at all. I pay unbelievable less time to it. But even then, I always have been doing satisfactory, that surprises people around me. Only a few days before of exam I'm a bit serious and then I find some interest in it - it's like a race. But the whole year, my behaviour never says that I'm a student. Always busy with other stuff. I even have a record of attending my class six days in a whole year. In college's first year, I attended not more than 15 classes and in the second year, I attended none.

What subjects do you like in your studies? Physics and Math are the ones I like most and have skill in. I hate Chemistry b'cause it's just a lot of memorizing. Now after taking Business Studies, I find skill and interest in Accounting and Finance.

What Shampoo and other brands do you use? I shampoo with Selsun Blue - it has been so since 2000. Use Gillette Wild Rain foam and Censor Excel / Mack3 for shaving. I never use perfumes or deodorants for some personal reason, though I like them too much.

What have you pierced? I did pierce my right ear in around April 2004. It's something I used to hate but views change. Piercing doesn't mean you'll always have to hang rings and bla. Still, that was closed for I didn't wear anything there right after piercing. Then in around June or July of 2006 I pierce both of my ears but then kept only the left one.

Do you go to gyms and fitness centres? I always wanted to build my body, but with this height of 5'-5", that doesn't sound a good idea to me. Also, I don't have the time for workout for being involved in so many stuff. But I really like to build up my arms, it looks very manly. So since Nov 2005, I started going to Gold's Gym, the largest gym chain in the world, and the best possible gym in our country. But within two months I got involved in my business, so no time again. That's why I have bought instruments like dumbbells and barbells so that I can sometimes do things at home.

Your favourite foods include? So many. Starting from traditional Bengali rich foods to Chinese dishes. I specially love chicken, prawns and big fishes cooked in a thick gravy and spicy form. Chicken is what I take in every meal. Unless so tasty, I don't take beef or vegs at all. In snack items, I like burgers and club sandwiches esp., with heavy cheese and sweet mayonnaise. I hate pizzas. In all the cases I hate tomatoes, for their smell. I am too much fond of chocolates and also of chocolate ice-creams. I always like all sort of sweets esp. the strong ones. I take limited fruits such as banana, apple etc. Since I take less fruits and vegs, I always take supplementary vitamins of B, C, E and multi-vitamins in the forms of capsules. That really helps a lot.

Who are your favourite writers? Undoubtedly, Humayun Ahmed and Muhammad Jafar Iqbal. I don't have the habit of reading write ups of Tagore - Nazrul or Shakespeare or Keats. I didn't have the scope to get in to them, and so I let it go, for I've so many other involvements.

What time of the day do you like mostly? It's right when the Sun rises and a few while after it. I also like totally quiet dark nights like around 3-4 here. Well I also like windy, cloudy days and when it rains a lot for long. That's just too sweet and romantic.

Which season do you like best? I like winter, but not too cold like in the U.S. or Canada. Winter of our country is fine. I hate summer here, I sweat too much.

What is your motto? "What cannot happen, can never happen. Which is mine, is forever mine." This I find true in every single step in my life as well as others' lives that I watch closely. I always say it to people and put it in e-mails as my signature most of the times. A lot of people, whoever 'realized' this quote, appreciated it deeply telling how much it helped them through the tough paths of life. Philosophy seems foolish, but to tell any ultimate truth, you must knock it's door.

(Last modified: August, 2006.)